FEAR – It Really Sucks

For those that do not know I have quite a few problems with fear and anxiety in my life. It really truly sucks (sucks major donkey balls), as there are things I would like to do but I am just afraid to do. I am afraid of rejection, I am afraid of failure, just afraid in general and I am sick of it, so sick of it.

I have been running a gaming news website/blog for years on and off with and without a primary job. It appears that one of my fears is happening and that fear is something that I have created (Nintendo-Centrum now Gaming-Centrum) is dying. I have no idea what to do. I have lost touch with gaming and blogging; it really hurts and pisses me off that it is dying. I keep stating on my website’s Twitter account that I want to do podcasting and a video type show but what is holding me back? That stupid freaking thing called FEAR! Why cannot I be able to jump in front of a camera as I see so many people do these days?

I have heard and have been told you can do anything if you put your mind to it but I find that just does not happen, at least, with me due to fear.

Fear would you just die so I can do things that make me happy and maybe even make a nice living at something. Something that is not run of the mill and boring like everyone else does.

Fear sucks it really really sucks!!